September marks the anniversary of important events in my life: My physical and spiritual birthdays, my mother’s birthday, starting college. I like to celebrate the whole month. This year, it seemed dissociated from reality with the sensation of a lack of purpose. The resumption of in-person church services helps to alleviate the disconnection. After two weeks, worshiping with other believers face to face makes a huge difference in my feelings of belonging. But there was something else bothering me until our first online prophetic gathering this week.
As we worshiped, I saw clearly that God has been calling me back to my first love of Him. The old songs moved me in old and new ways, resurrecting the feelings of joy they once elicited, while sparking more seasoned understanding of my purpose in the body of Christ.
My writing is my voice and purpose. It calls to others, offering them the wisdom gleaned from years of seeking the face of God. He has made it clear that this blog is my primary form of serving Him. Giving and encouraging are secondary to writing about seeking His face, especially instead of His hand, and His faithfulness to me over the years as I look into His eyes by the Holy Spirit. And indeed, I am still learning to seek His face to know Him rather than to seek His hand for what He gives. We look at our circumstances and appropriately cry out to Him. This season of hardship whether financial or personal because of quarantine causes a stir in our souls to seek him for help. But the longing of His heart is that we have close, personal relationship with Him so that what we need overflows in our lives from that intimacy.
I remember the sweetness when my faith was new. Reading His word and praying in my grandfather’s rocking chair started my day before work. Worship and prayer when my first son took a morning nap was next. Then two children meant snatching time whenever it arose.
Now, I have all the time in the world. He’s reminded me lately of the wonderful life that has flowed from looking into His face. I talk with Him all the time; praying continuously is my lifestyle. But I sense a new season of face to face communion is growing. I look forward to what it brings to me because He always blesses my turning to His faithful promises.
Psalm 67:1-2 God be gracious to us and bless us, and cause His face to shine upon us—Selah. That Your way may be known on the earth, Your salvation among all nations. New American Standard Bible (NASB) Copyright © 1960, 1962, 1963, 1968, 1971, 1972, 1973, 1975, 1977, 1995 by The Lockman Foundation
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