God is teaching me about what I believe and how it makes a difference in the effectiveness of my prayer life. Fortunately, that knowledge has exposed a lie that I had accepted for many years, including after accepting Jesus as Savior and Lord. A pastor’s message last year sparked my request to God that He would reveal any lies that I believe. His faithfulness exposed untruth that affects my view of Him and my future.
So, the issue is, does God mean what He says when He claims to be my provider? I realize that I just didn’t believe His promise, especially one He has been showing me since my job as a pathology transcriptionist ended as a result of cutbacks. He promised:
Hebrews 13:5b-6 for He Himself has said, “I will never desert you, nor will I ever forsake you,” so that we confidently say, “The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What will man do to me?” NASB
The Classic Amplified version says in part “I will not, I will not, I will not in any degree leave you helpless…”
The doubt is not just about His role as my provider, it is related to my understanding of what I am called to do for the sake of the kingdom. The Lord has been leading me by the Holy Spirit to write about His faithfulness to me through this blog and through my book “The Cleft For Life.” He has also encouraged me to use my imagination and creativity in writing fiction that reflects that same faithfulness yielding my book “Weaving Love’s Hidden Pattern” and a new work in progress for publication later this year. I was faithful to start this blog almost seven years ago. The first work of fiction started long ago, and the spark of Jon Acuff’s book “Finish: Give Yourself the Gift of Done” lighting the fire to complete it and self-publish. Both of my books are available on Amazon in e-book and print form, and I’ve taken the additional step of making them available for bookstores via IngramSpark.
This process is taking me to a deeper faith in God’s promise that if I will do the work He’s called me to do, provision for my life will come. Not knowing the manner of provision is now the challenge. But, as a friend saw in a vision many moons ago, the path will be clear and hedged in except for each step forward as they come. By His grace, I will take each one.
Scripture reference: New American Standard Bible (NASB)Copyright © 1960, 1962, 1963, 1968, 1971, 1972, 1973, 1975, 1977, 1995 by The Lockman Foundation
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